[day 98-105: knowing]

you want to know what's hard for me?

knowing.
waiting.
and understanding.

because most of those don't click together
at the same time.

usually you know something,
and then you have to

wait

before you

understand

why that thing is happening to you or someone you love.

there are some hard things that are
happening in my life right now
that i don't quite understand yet.

they are happening for the right reasons,
but they are still hard.
and you know what?

no one knows where they'll be in two years.
no one knows where they'll be in one year.
no one [really] knows where they'll be in a month.

and i definitely don't know where i am going to be...
which scares me.
i know where i would like to be.

but where i want to be and where i am going to be
could be two completely different things.

and when i say no one knows where they'll be,
i'm talking about on a
physical
emotional
spiritual
or mental level.

life is a huge combination of all of those things.
and it's hard. real hard.

understanding why some things go the way they do is hard.
but it is a part of life that eventually creates
beauty and hope and closure....
and possibly create other opportunities down the road.

and maybe these things i'm currently experiencing
are things i'm not supposed to
understand yet.

i know it'll work out eventually.
and it will work out the way that its supposed to.

i've just got to wait.
patiently...

over and out.

[day 92-97: bananagrams]

  
this is a shout out to

anyone

who has ever played
bananagrams.

it is thee most intense game of
super speedy scrabble
you will ever play.
i will not take the time to
explain it...
but, next time you see me,
if you're interested,
just ask.

it has been introduced to my
family by some awesome
extended family members.
it gets pulled out
at family parties,
reunions,
and gatherings in general...

when wagers are attached
it gets a little intense.

like tonight.

thanks to a [very] out-numbered game
three hooligans
with [decent] word choice
and a wager

my mother and i are now making dinner.
for those hooligans.

boy vs. girls was the game
dinner was the wager

and because of ONE tile,
we lost the first time.
and because of ONE word,
we lost the second time.
barely.

we will be having a rematch...
and i assure you,
i will not be beaten a
third time.

over and out.

[day 74-91: catch up]

it's been a real long time since i've been on here.
here's a quickie version of what's been going on in my life.

had an awesome mother's day with my mom...and others.
my mom is the most amazing person i have ever met.
she continues to amaze me with her continued kindness and positivity.
she's my very best friend and i'm not sure what i would do
without her.

went to an amazing retreat at daniels summit in heber for uvusa.
talked about the color code, discovered what i am, and how to use it.
got closer with the new council [aah it was so great]
went snowshoeing for a leadership activity.

working at orange leaf and as a nanny/cna for two families.
loving all of my opportunities there.

attended ula [utah leadership academy] at slcc with council
discussed the importance of leaving a positive digital footprint...
over and over and over. it's something i'm taking to heart!
had more great times with my council friends.
learned the coolest line dance anyone has ever seen.
[thanks to sam, tash, and brittni]
discovered the dance floor theory...
and a couple other things.

saw thor saturday night.
not sure how i feel about it...

sunday.
ward-hopped like crazy.
had friends over...which was great!

monday.
went to work, which was awesome.
got the fastest haircut i've ever had in my entire life.
fhe.
chilled with the fam.

there you go...super quickie version of my life.
i've had to stretch myself a lot lately
in the way of communicating with others,
and it's been hard!
so for those i've been interacting with,
thanks for being patient with me.

summer has officially started,
and i am pumped.
over and out.

[day 72-74: pride]

today, i have got a lot of pride for our country.
i got the news about osama bin laden
[along with everyone else]
and i could not believe it.

this post, though it may be small,
it just a big shout out
and a sincere thank you
to whoever has been
[involved]
in the fight for our country.

i am so grateful to live
where i do,
surrounded by those i love,
free to worship,
live, laugh, learn,
and become the person i want to be.

thank you.
to everyone.

over and out.